Archive for January, 2008

On the road again…

… so I won’t be posting again until February 6 or 7. We’re off to various places to do various things; for at least part of the time, we’ll be out of range of modern communication. Whether I can handle such a withdrawal from news and the blogosphere in the middle of the most exciting primary season of my life is an open question at this point!

I’ll report on where we went and what we did when blogging resumes in three weeks or so.

Meanwhile, check out some of the blogs on my revolving blog roll. And go see “Michael Clayton”, a film that is not receiving its due.

And if you’re voting (I’m doing so absentee), consider voting for either one of the two very fine men named for the author of the final Gospel.

“Becoming available for the miracle”: in defense of psychotropics

The discussion of medication, specifically anti-depressants, has made its way back into the blogosphere. Kactus posted on December 20 at Feministe about her relief at finding a good anti-anxiety medication. More than 120 comments followed, many critical of the pharmaceutical industry — and others questioning the usefulness of medication for depression or anxiety.

Responding to Kactus, my fellow vegan feminist Elaine Vigneault takes a fairly strong anti-medication tack, largely rooted in her own experience.

Yesterday, Daisy summed up the whole kerfuffle at her place.

I was on one form or another of psychotropic drugs (all prescribed, though at times abused) from 1987 to 1998. After my first hospitalization at age 19, I was put on Elavil, an old-fashioned anti-depressant that left me teary and sleeping 12 hours a day. I was a first-generation Prozac kid (from 1989-1992). As micro-psychotic episodes began to appear, I was put on lithium as well — and spent eighteen months on that drug. Others followed, from Anafranil to Wellbutrin to Klonopin. I became seriously addicted to the last of these; of all the substances I ever put in my body, none was as compelling and intoxicating as Klonopin. Continue reading ‘“Becoming available for the miracle”: in defense of psychotropics’

The Books of the Bible

I was recently sent a review copy of The Books of the Bible.

Using Today’s New International Version (TNIV) translation, TBOTB departs from “traditional” bibles in several ways: none of the artificial chapter and verse breaks (which, of course, date only from the 16th century C.E.), and the books are placed in a “sense order” that allows for the reader to connect more effectively with the intent of the original authors. For example, the gospel of Luke and the book of Acts are combined into one single document; the gospel of John comes at the very end of the bible, after all the other epistles and gospels, combined with the three letters of John and the book of Revelation. It’s not a chronological ordering (though that too would require that the Pauline epistles go before the gospels) — it’s an ordering based on historic views of authorship and upon what will “work” for the reader. Each gospel now heads up a set of other texts (Acts, Epistles, etc.) that allow for a new perspective on the life of Jesus.

I’ve been making my way through the New Testament portion of TBOTB, and am enjoying it immensely so far — especially reading Luke/Acts as a single coherent document. Best of all, folks, it’s soft-bound and available for only $8.99. I only endorse what I use, and I’m using this. It’s going in my carry-on.

Age is never just a number: on “Juno” and covert older men/younger women boundary violation

My wife and I finally got around to seeing Juno this past Saturday night. It was as delightful as promised. Other bloggers have already dealt with the issues of sexual agency and teen pregnancy raised by the film, and the question of whether the picture carries a subtle “pro-life” message has been widely debated. I’m not going to add to the fine commentary already out there. But I was struck by one aspect of the film that dealt with an oft-posted on topic here, older men/younger women relationships.

Warning: mild plot spoiler below the fold. Continue reading ‘Age is never just a number: on “Juno” and covert older men/younger women boundary violation’

In case you’re wondering…

I’m not going to be posting about the whole “purists vs. popularizers” controversy until after I get back to regular blogging in February. During my upcoming hiatus (January 16-February 6), I will be thinking about many things — and one of those things will be where, when, how, and if I might have been mistaken.

The opprobrium that post attracted was severe. (The best of the responses was from BFP, here.) To what extent that condemnation was justified, I’m still not sure. I have an unattractive tendency to try and defuse tense situations with vague apologies, often without being entirely certain what I’m apologizing for and whether an apology is deserved. It’s a bad habit in relationships, and it’s a bad habit in blogging, and there’s no point in my inflaming the matter further until I’m clearer.

Stentor asks:

“Is it too much to ask you to hold off on the overwrought mea-culpa-cum-apologia until you can accurately diagnose the culpa?”

Fair enough.

I’ve got a couple more posts to put up between now and Wednesday morning, when my wife and I leave on an extended break. I won’t be back until regular blogging until February 6 or 7, and the next time I write about feminism, race, class, and inclusion will be after a time to rest — and to reflect.

Passings, passings

The obituary for Chuck Chumrau, my adored father-in-law, is in today’s Los Angeles Daily News.

George Douglas Albert’s obituary is in the San Francisco Chronicle today as well. Doug’s wife, my cousin Muffie, preceded him in death by just weeks. Dying so soon after a spouse is so often the case with those who have been married a very,very long time, and we can only count it a blessing. Doug, who was 90, was a beloved fixture at family gatherings my entire life; a proud Stanford man, he clearly waited to die until after the Cardinal had retaken the Axe. Usually in a minority at holidays, he gave as good as he got in friendly arguments with his many Old Blue relatives. Cousins by marriage are true cousins to me, and Doug was my oldest living cousin.

Both my father-in-law and my cousin Doug wanted any donations made in their name to be given to dog rescues, DELTA of Glendale and Northern California Beagles, respectively.

Sigh. 2008 is off to a bittersweet start.

More election endorsements, and choosing Clinton over Obama

I’ll be leaving the country again on Wednesday, January 16. We won’t be back until February 6, the day after “tsunami Tuesday” and the California presidential primary. I am eagerly awaiting my absentee ballot, quietly confident it will arrive in the next couple of days. I haven’t missed voting in an election since I turned 18 in 1985, and don’t want to break that streak now.

A prediction:

I’m fairly confident that neither party will have decided its nominee by February 6. Even after so many huge states cast ballots on the 5th, no candidate will have clinched his or her party’s nomination. I suspect that for the Democrats, Obama and Clinton will still be neck-and-neck, with dear John Edwards — sadly — eliminated. For the GOP, there will still be four candidates with a shot at the nomination: McCain, Romney, Giuliani, and Huckabee. McCain and Huckabee will be in the best position, but look for Republican party elders (who not-so-quietly loathe both these mavericks) to do everything they can to help their favorite lad, Romney, put together a coalition that helps him win a brokered convention. Frankly, I’d love it if both parties had exciting conventions.

So, below the fold, my endorsements for the California primary. Continue reading ‘More election endorsements, and choosing Clinton over Obama’

Land of reconciled contradictions: a note on loving the Philippines

Since I was a child, I’ve been fortunate to do a fair amount of traveling. One thing I’ve noticed is that certain places resonate with me much more than others. Most folks notice the same thing. Sometimes, even when one has no particular familial connection to a place, one feels at home; other times, that sensation of belonging is conspicuously absent.

I’m a Californian to my core. Wherever I go in the States or abroad, I am always reminded that my truest earthly home is on the gently rolling slopes of the California coastal range. But certain places touch me: Vienna, my father’s birthplace, always feels intensely familiar and welcoming. Austria enchants me and exasperates me and envelops me with smells and sensations that my soul knows. That makes sense, as it is the land of many of my ancestors. I also feel quite comfortably at home in England.

And yet there are other places to which I have little or no personal (or geneaological) connection, but which still manage to move me profoundly. Wales is one such place. As far as the Celtic fringe is concerned, I like Ireland and I like Scotland, but don’t feel “at home” in either; though I have virtually no Welsh ancestry, the first time I set foot in places like Carmarthen and Aberystwyth and Dolgellau, I felt a curious rush of excitement which I could not explain. I felt that same feeling in Stellenbosch, South Africa, but nowhere else outside the USA.

I felt this same feeling of happy familarity in the Philippines this past week. The only other places in East Asia that we’ve been are Thailand, Hong Kong, and Macao; though I enjoyed those visits, I felt no immediate sentimental attachment to any of those. But from the time we stepped off the plane at Aquino International early Monday morning until we left Thursday evening, I felt enveloped by warmth. It sounds hackneyed, probably because it is, and yet I have no other words with which to describe the sensation. Continue reading ‘Land of reconciled contradictions: a note on loving the Philippines’

Lecturing on Kabbalah and Christianity in the Philippines: a report

Though I don’t often blog about it, I’ve been studying Kabbalah since early 2004. Friends of ours invited my wife and me to come to a few lectures, and after a suitable period of suspicion, I became fascinated. My initial reservation about Kabbalah was the most common of all: wasn’t Kabbalah incompatible with Christianity? Like most folks, I was under the impression that Kabbalah was the “mystical aspect of Judaism”, with roots no earlier than the Middle Ages.

The Kabbalah Centre is quite controversial, particularly among Jews, for espousing the notion that Kabbalah is more of a “practice” than a faith — and that as a practice, it is universally applicable. While the study of Kabbalah was once reserved solely for married Jewish men over forty, the Centre makes the case that Kabbalah’s teachings can transform anyone’s life. The most famous practitioner of Kabbalah is Madonna, and she and other celebrities have given rise to the popular assumption that this ancient wisdom, at least as practiced by the Centre, is trendy, undemanding, and bastardized. (Let me note that Madonna’s commitment is profound and enduring rather than transitory and superficial.)

Doing internet research is a poor way to learn about the Kabbalah Centre. The one and only scholarly study of the Kabbalah Centre in print is Jody Myer’s recent monograph Kabbalah and the Spiritual Quest: The Kabbalah Centre in America (Praeger 2007). Myers, professor of Religious Studies at Cal State Northridge, spent years interviewing the Centre’s students, teachers — and detractors. Her work is fair, even-handed, and though not without some small criticisms of the Centre’s operations, ultimately quite laudatory of the work it does in the world. I recommend it strongly to anyone interested in learning more.

In any event, I’ve worked through my initial skepticism to discover that the Centre does offer helpful spiritual tools to those who have a strong faith in Jesus. When I first came to the Kabbalah Centre, I was told “Hugo, whatever Kabbalah does in your life will only make you a better Christian. We don’t want you to try and become Jewish. We want you to use whichever tools you find that are helpful to enhance your own understanding of God and your role in the universe.” I had my doubts. But to paraphrase William James, contempt prior to investigation is a sure bar against understanding, and so I gave Kabbalah my time and my effort. Continue reading ‘Lecturing on Kabbalah and Christianity in the Philippines: a report’

Home and photos up

We got home from the Philippines earlier this evening. Tomorrow, I’ll explain more about the “Kabbalah and Christianity” lecture series I gave in Makati this week, but for now, simply note that pictures are up. Here are some of mine, and here are some taken by Anna Ledesma, a student of Kabbalah in the Philippines.

A rambling post about blogging, hubris, narcissism, and the longing to be liked

This will be my last post for a week. We’re off to the Philippines tomorrow night; I’ve got lectures in Makati City (Manila) next Tuesday and Wednesday. We’ll be home to Pasadena late on Thursday of next week, and then off on another trip as of January 16. I will post about the Kabbalah and Christianity lectures next Friday, deo volente.

(Just as I finished the last sentence, one of the chinchillas in the next room made an “I’m having a dream” call — a series of little grunts signalling not distress but something else. Perhaps just a desire for me to come into the room and make cooing noises to all of them.)

Re: Iowa. Thrilled by the strong turn-out, and deeply moved by Barack Obama’s speech. I said before that if Romney and Edwards were the nominees, we’d have debates between two immensely handsome, articulate men who struggle with slickness. But a debate between Obama and Mike Huckabee would be a thing to behold; two consummate “outsiders”, two men running on two differing visions of hope, two men who have an extraordinary ability to connect with a wide variety of people. The establishment right has underestimated Huck’s political skills. The left better not make the same mistake by assuming he won’t be the GOP nominee, and if he is, that he is unelectable.

Re: blogging. I’m not going to complain about the criticism I’ve received here and elsewhere for yesterday’s post on evangelism, feminism, purists and popularizers. But it reminds me of what I like least about blogging.

I’m an ENFP, and though I enjoy writing, I enjoy conversation more. When I’m talking with someone, I feel so much more confident, so much more at ease. I’m at my best “off-the-cuff”, with as few notes as possible. (I’ve got these two, two-hour lectures next week on a topic I’ve never talked about — and I’ll go up with a few quotes scribbled down and nothing more. I love the thrill of improv, the challenge of constructing a coherent argument extemporaneously. That’s not laziness as much as it is thrill-seeking.) But over the course of a debate or a conversation, there’s so much more opportunity to avoid misunderstanding, to avoid the accidental infliction of hurt. I know others feel the opposite is true, but honestly, I’m more careful with the words I speak than with the words I write, even though I write far more slowly than I speak. Continue reading ‘A rambling post about blogging, hubris, narcissism, and the longing to be liked’

Speaking of anthologies…

Men Speak Out: Views on Gender, Sex, and Power is now at last available from Amazon and other booksellers. Edited by the wonderful Shira Tarrant, it features essays by some forty pro-feminist men. Some are famous: Robert Jensen, Michael Flood, Michael Kimmel. Others are less so. Heck, there’s even an essay by some guy named Hugo Schwyzer.

I’ll review the whole thing in, well, February. But you should get it now.

Feminism, marketing, evangelism, inclusion: UPDATED

On the ongoing “Yes Means Yes!” front, Theriomorph has a thoughtful response to my post last week. In the comments section below my December 27 post, I wrote:

…feminist missiology has to operate on multiple levels. We need our radicals and our moderates, our popularizers and our theorists. We need to package our most important ideas for the mass market in a way that the mass market will find palatable.

I’d rather 97% of the people get 3% of feminism than have 3% get 97%, if that makes sense.

Theriomorph responds:

We do, however, live in a world in which a woman political activist who is white, young, economically privileged, and saying something essentially upbeat and dumbed down that is guaranteed not to rock the institutional privilege boat but instead work only on the concerns of the most privileged among us and do so in an extremely circumscribed way can sell mad books.

We live in a world in which the merit of our ideas or talents or ethical constructs is far less important than the marketing behind them, and the same people get marketed saying the same things.

First of all, let me again reject the notion that Jessica Valenti’s writing is “upbeat and dumbed down.” But we’ve been down this road before; what Theriomorph calls “dumbed down” I see as “radically accessible”; what she calls “upbeat” I see as “inspiring.” Evel Knievel on his rocket-powered motorcycle couldn’t leap the gulf in perspective that has opened up over Full Frontal Feminism. That’s disappointing.

But I’d like to expand on my short remarks about “marketing”, and the comparison between Christian evangelism and the feminist mission. In many ways, the feminist community bears a resemblance to the evangelical Christian one. Both are committed to transforming the world. Both are committed to reaching people globally with a message that is life-changing. And both communities have intense, often bitter debates about exactly how to “package the message.” Continue reading ‘Feminism, marketing, evangelism, inclusion: UPDATED’

Thursday Short Poem: Eliot’s “Journey of the Magi”

As we head towards Epiphany, here’s one of the most famous poems about the origin of that feast. It’s a troubled poem from a troubled, wise, conflicted believer. The final line seems so bleak, it’s important to remember the central one a few beats above: And I would do it again.

The Journey of the Magi

A cold coming we had of it,
Just the worst time of the year
For a journey, and such a long journey:
The ways deep and the weather sharp,
The very dead of winter.
And the camels galled, sore-footed, refractory,
Lying down in the melting snow.
There were times when we regretted
The summer palaces on slopes, the terraces,
And the silken girls bringing sherbet.
Then the camel men cursing and grumbling
And running away, and wanting their liquor and women,
And the night-fires going out, and the lack of shelters,
And the cities dirty and the towns unfriendly
And the villages dirty and charging high prices:
A hard time we had of it.
At the end we preferred to travel all night,
Sleeping in snatches,
With the voices singing in our ears, saying
That this was all folly.

Then at dawn we came down to a temperate valley,
Wet, below the snow line, smelling of vegetation;
With a running stream and a water mill beating the darkness,
And three trees on the low sky,
And an old white horse galloped away in the meadow.
Then we came to a tavern with vine-leaves over the lintel,
Six hands at an open door dicing for pieces of silver,
And feet kicking the empty wineskins.
But there was no information, and so we continued
And arrived at evening, not a moment too soon
Finding the place; it was (you may say) satisfactory.

All this was a long time ago, I remember,
And I would do it again, but set down
This set down
This: were we led all that way for
Birth or Death? There was a Birth, certainly,
We had evidence and no doubt. I had seen birth and death,
But had thought they were different; this Birth was
Hard and bitter agony for us, like Death, our death.
We returned to our places, these Kingdoms,
But no longer at ease here, in the old dispensation,
With an alien people clutching their gods.
I should be glad of another death.

Vote for someone named John: primary and caucus endorsements

Months ago, I predicted that the 2008 general election would be between Mitt Romney and John Edwards, anticipating a celebrated match-up between two talented, articulate, and strikingly good-looking candidates.

I’m not sure if my prediction will hold true, but on this eve of the Iowa caucus, let me be clear once more that I am endorsing John Edwards for the Democratic nomination. Of the top-tier candidates, he has the boldest and most progressive platform. His willingness to talk about the widening gap between rich and poor is refreshing; of all the major candidates, he promises to be the most aggressive in standing up for environmental and economic justice.

On the Republican side, it’s an easier call. John McCain is the class of the field. Unlike most of his fellow GOP candidates, McCain has not given in to the anti-immigrant xenophobia sweeping the party of the elephants. He is the only Republican to acknowledge the reality that global warming is largely a human-made phenomenon, and he has earned the enthusiastic endorsement of Republicans for Environmental Protection. Though far from being progressive in any real sense of the term, McCain’s willingness to buck right-wing orthodoxy and his commitment to the preservation of wild spaces earn him my vote.